Searixx means now. There may not be much time. Seek those who find simplicity among the complex. Reinstate the necessary.

 

-Monday-

November 21, 2005

Graham Baker-

 

So I'm for real for real believing that suffering cleanses the being. Oh, hi - it's Mya by the way - Mya White. Remember me? Back to simplicity and that Free Will and Destiny are two paths that lead to the same place, inseparable they are, crossing eachother along the way.

There is also a strength in that each and every moment is the same in many ways and all suffering is connected to a greater good. We are all our own universe - individual universes all connected sometimes greater than others (at times, in time through time, and by time) - ALL parts of a larger purpose every day working - working it out...working THINGS out...Everything matters in this life, in your universe...

I think as long as you don't let things consume you, so that you become one without sight, that it shall be fine.

 

Moderation

Understanding

Ah yeah - Beautiful life...

 

hints. clues. experience. lessons on the big picture. infinity. eternity. spects. grains of sand. A Network! more

Di 2

Pair

Deuce

Dipod

Dicotomy

Too

 

We all suffer differently in many ways - but still all suffering - NO TROUBLE will last forever due to time and life's expected changes. Life has its own direction and will change on its own schedule

 

A journey of the journey - the destination is in the journey

for it is not an abyss, only if you let it (create the abyss)

 

Allowance ---- I think if you allow your eyes to open and open and open it should not bring fear or worry. It shall be indefinitely beautiful. To not be stubborn - allow every corner and every piece - to see, to choose.

Accept the course

Accept its course

 

I feel like I have or have gained a better undertanding more fruitful and weightless than the last. One that does not overwhelm the present nor the future...not even the past. The past in which now I'll give a nice pat on the ass - even a wink or a raised glass. Grateful for life and where I've been, where I'm going / about to go

tres [3-beasts]

tri [3-wings]

terce [3-things]

[3-pigs]

three [3-wishes]

triathalon

triad [3-kings]

MAGIC#3

Reduce, Reuse, Recycle

3-Blind mice

Stop, drop, roll

3wise men

3 beats p.measure

in 4 time

tercet

3 canticles

3 myths

 

And, I guess comparisons aren't odious because we're all connected - it's all connected. I am not only for myself, I am for everyone but inorder to be for everyone I think one must understand and know those things like 'meeting is the beggining of party' and understand or even see where they are, what they're doing and where they've been - to learn from them, learn from you, learn from me, etc. To enjoi, accept, and be without greed, envy, gluttony, wrath, lust, desire, hate...TO NOT OVERINDULGE IN ANY OVER THESE .:. I may consume them but they shall not consume me. Be without Prodigality

~

In recent time I feel comfortable, present, and alive and through my recent suffering I've been released once again learning, being, seeing, and being ~ my path and way. Currently I am happy and ready, for this way not being to careful or careless

The new release / rejuvination was heavily initiated by your response(s) to me that day in the new Jeep - Me, shaking and weary in a somewhat pensive state...I'm not saying your responsible - "I'm just saying!" I don't even know if I should go into detail - - ah well sure. You didn't make me feel any of a terrible thing after I said what I said - I didn't feel embaressed, wrong, hated, incomplete etc - Then a reinforced state of serenity : PLACID - I finally felt, really felt that everything is gunna be alright and from there I let down my hair.

[8 divided by 2]

 

There were plenty of things I did not understand. I became all caught up in me not listening to anything else, blind not seeing a thing. It seemed like there were mirrors everywhere exposing all them "sins" consuming me. I was wishin instead of hoping, empty yet swollen thinking of the service of my end - furrowing further below Solaria - Damn It Sucked! I am very glad that period is no longer / not here (it was a 3-monther). I would like to appologize for anything I may have said or not said during that time and ALSO anything I did or did not do at that time, but it is over for now. I could not understand why the worl was the way it was (is) or how it even got that way. I could not understand how people could be so cruel, manipulative, fraudulent, violent, and inconsiderate. Every thought I had wove in and out, wrapping around relentlessly and perpetually - however very uneven and irregular. I wasn't used to the outcome of this [instability], - it had been a while since I'd feel that kind of anxiety that would begin to control / consume me, especially after a long-period os strength, joy, tranquility, stability etc.

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